Lacking Motivation

I have Friday off because I work this weekend. I pretty much have to do two hours of working out today in order to make it to seven hours this week. The gym will be closed any hours that I won't be at work this weekend. As frustrating as it is that I belong to a gym now with horrible weekend hours, I have to keep telling myself that at least they have great classes. Normally, I would be fine getting two hours of gym time in. I would go do some running or another cardio thing for an hour or so. Then I would head up to the women's weight room to do some upper body weight lifting. However, Goodyear doesn't have a women's weight room. They have a women's fitness room where they throw the discards of all other machines; the room I was in last Friday and so depressed that I had to leave after a half an hour. So this would require me to be brave enough to try out the circuit room all by myself. Needless to say, it is almost 5:00 and I haven't made it there yet.

Unfortunately I have all evening to do it. I have absolutely no plans. The gym is open until 10:00, which allows me to procrastinate. And feel sorry for myself. I have no plans for tomorrow evening either. And I don't do well when I have lots of free time and nothing to fill it with. I just want to curl up in a sun beam and sleep the day away. If only I was able to get up and do things with my life on my own. I need to work on this, I just don't know where to start.

I have told myself that one hour at the gym today might be okay. There is a possibility of 60 degree weather tomorrow, and maybe I could go for a run outside after I get off work tomorrow. That, of course, would require me to be motivated twice. There's always a workout DVD that I could throw in. We'll see...